All this time, i had a hard time to accept certain situation.Perhaps the feelings in my heart resist believing so i chose to live in denial. I always wondered what ifs and tried to convince myself that maybe the bad parts was just a phase or was not bad at all so I always give it another try. That was the game i played to myself for quite a while.However, when you dont even let yourself to ”what if” anymore because you do whatever it takes and things still dont work out as you want then what is there for you to convince yourself. All you have to do is bite the bullet. Accept the truth that things would never ever changed.
I dont wanna let anger get the best of me. I dont want to rip myself and energy to something that i dont have the power to change. So this time i dont wanna even bother myself.
what if no more what if