fadillah fauzia akmal


We sat on a circle. Introduced ourself to new friend in the left side. And I started first. Told about general things like name, where come from, my university. My new friend listened to me seriously. Until I said that I am an introvert. He shook his head and stared me with wider eyes. Said he didn’t believe it.

89750What i could do at that time except laughed? With that kind of noise voice that i made, the first one who asking people around before the even started, who could believe? Some people still think that introvert is a person who can’t talk much, doesn’t like people, shy, has an social anxiety. Well, they are not – thanks to all psychology books that i read when i was in senior high school

89758So, introvert is a person who recharge their energy by being their own. Staying in the bedroom. Alone. Listen the music. Alone. Drawing. Alone. Doodling. Alone. And book. Don’t forget the book. Book is an important thing! Or just stay in library. Or quite place. Or go everywhere by themself. Or a quite crowed place where they know no one. And it’s okay. They don’t feel lonely by being alone. Nor weird or anything. Because intoverts get drained by being with people. And, that’s how they recharge their energy; by being their own.

89748I still remember, once when i was 9 years old, my two friends and i, specially schooled in my village just for a year to learn the quran. The end of the year, we celebrated Khatam Qur’an. It is a yearly big event. So, many people were at home. My two friend’s family, Ibu and Papa’s family. And at that night, i cried. Ibu asked me why. I said that they made my room being untidy. Absolutetly it was a lie. Because honestly i do really had no idea why. What i know i got messed up feeling.

When i did my KKN, i jogging to the beach just by myself,- well, not literally alone because i brought Charles Dickens with me. And when i came back, my friends asked me where did i just go. No one believed i went alone. Like impossible. Like why just go alone? I must be met someone there they said.

I know not all people understand about it. And it’s oke for me. I enjoy my solitude. But then, just because we do need solitude, doesn’t mean we’re gonna stay forever in our cave. We are craving too for the conversation and the company like extroverts do. What make it different just the doses. We just need in small one.


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